February is MY month

January came and went.
I felt sluggish most of the month.
I quit trying, for a little while and I feel like I needed that.

I got onto iHerb.com and decided to order some prenatals with Folate, and I ordered some Folate supplements. As you all know, I had my first son with spontaneous Spina Bifida, so I am required to take 4mg of Folic Acid/Folate prior to TTC another. (Normal women TTC are recommended to take 400-800mcg of FA).

I sometimes get super motivated, and then chicken out. Like with school, with work, with chores.
I want to do it so bad and I feel like I would accomplish so much, and then fear hits me.
What if I fail? What if I'm not happy with my results?
That is why I took January off. I quit taking my prenatals because I realized, taking Folic Acid was probably doing me more harm than good. And it made me feel like a failure.

Then I asked myself... if not now, when?
I need to pull my head out of my butt and get this show on the road. I'm being selfish. I'm making myself a victim.

But February will be my month.
I'm currently 6DPO, but not symptom spotting since my husband and I BD once during fertile week, and once the day after ovulation.

As you recall, we were fighting a lot.

So, here's to AF showing again in 8 days or so, and starting all over again.

MTHF and Folic Acid

I'm sure you all have heard it all over the internet, especially recently.
MTHF is a genetic mutation that prevents our bodies from breaking down synthetic folate (aka Folic Acid).
The more I read last night, the more I became convinced that I need to drop my current prenatal supplements (I found one here), and start taking 5- Methylfolate instead.
No, I have not had the testing done. I don't have the means to pay for it. But I would rather be on the safe side since there are so many indicators that I could have the genetic mutation. And if simply switching my supplements could help prevent a second Spina Bifida baby? Sure, why not? I figure, if I don't have the mutation, what's it going to hurt anyway? The only difference is, people who have the genetic mutation aren't able to break down the Folic Acid, and it can actually be harmful to their health.
I am stubborn, but in my research I like to be thorough.
Now my only problem is getting rid of 300 prenatal pills so I can replace them!